Can't

One thing you cannot do is really on people to support you. There will always be doubt. 

I doubt myself enough as it is but it just gets so much worse when I hear people around me doubt me, too. I don't need it or want it. But you really can't expect them not to, I mean to them it's nothing. They don't understand how hard it is because really everything that's a battle for you is a breeze to them. 

I was ill prepared for today. I relied too much on the expectation that I would get support. Next week will be different.